♥ 나의 사랑!!!

Curiousity~

2009-12-05T03:03:00.003+08:00

LOVE.

Does it really bring happy endings?

My Blah3~

2009-12-05T02:29:00.003+08:00

Nichkhun's cuteness didnt fail to make me mmmmeeelt.
Honestly,how can a guy maintain such lovely baby-face features?
And his other twin is only just a baby!Mason,the baby in Good Daddy!

Aww...brb.MELTING!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRAINY!

I want to wish a happy 22nd birthday to my 2nd brother.
It's his birthday today, 5th December.

He's the "brain" of the family.Always make make me feel intimidated.LOL.
Niwaes,sometimes i think he's too clever till he acts like a retard once in a while.

And that's when it starts to annoy me.Like as if i belong to one of those groups too.haha!

Saengil Chuka Hamnida Oppa!
(i'm sure he dunno the meaning of this!)
Uh nvm...hu hu hu....

School has been.BORING!I think i skipped HR classes for the tenth time!
But i'm glad i still got A for it.It's one of those classes that bores you to
death and it's better if you study for it by yourself.
I miss Mr Sam.

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.....ugh!No way!haha~!

I may sound really chirpy and blah3 but i'm not really happy.
Things at home have been crazy.Things are starting to go wrong but no one notices it.No one even cares to hear what i have to say.Money is the major issue in the house.Dad keeps cutting my allowance money & mom kept telling me tales about my (~~moneysucking~~)granny and making me hate the whole of the relatives from my dad's side.I got really sick of it.
I'm dissapointed that 60% of our conversations are always about them.
Sometimes i feel like there's no one in the family that sincerely wants to know about my well-being.
It saddens me.
But what can i do?

I get the feeling that people are starting to misunderstand me.
Judging me base on my actions.
Well,there's nothing else to say about it.
I'm not going to explain myself since it's already been like that in the first place.

My sister's keeper

2009-11-27T22:36:00.004+08:00

"I on the other hand,am not a coincidence.I was engineered."

One word.
Moving.
This story really touched my heart.Other than japanese movie "One litre of tears",this is another movie worth watching.I cried at the end of the movie because it was really touching.It began to hit me, how precious life really is.

From what i'm told by my friends,the movie has a completely different story than the one in the storybook.In the movie,Kate died.But in the storybook,Anna was killed in an accident and died.Seriously,i think it would have been more moving to watch Anna die instead of Kate.This is like one of those times whereby you had to make a tough decision and both sides of your choice have conditions attached to it.Like things didn't really make a difference no matter which side you choose.

I think i'm going to read the book one day.I'm sure it will be more interesting.

I would rate this 9 out of 10 but i might change my mind after reading the book.^^

And perhaps i will leave 2012 & Ninja Assasin till nest week.I got some studying to do.

New Moon

2009-11-27T17:46:00.008+08:00

"Don't make me choose,cause it will be him.It's always been him."

Just finished watching New Moon a couple of minutes ago.It wasnt as great as i thought it would be.I find it a little dull,less interesting than Twilight.Jacob was really hot with those abs and cute short hair that makes him look "clean".Edward,well..he's still the pale looking guy so there's nothing much to comment on.I think i need to read the book instead of just depending on the movie because it's not really clear.And this means,i would have to start with Twilight before moving on to New Moon.Perhaps i should suggest my brother about sharing the cost of the book and letting him read it first because i'm a slow reader.And,i still got some unfinish stories to finish up.I hope he'll take the bait.haha!Dakota Fanning looks really spooky with those red eyes(which i found really pretty) and black cloak.But it's pretty upsetting that her parts are really small.Will Jane still be around in Eclipse?Somehow,Kristen's actings are pretty bad from my point of view.She speaks really monotonously that it almost put me to sleep in several parts of the movie.I just can't see much chemistry between her & Robert.

Overall,i would rate this 7 out of 1o.
And these are just my opinions.

Next movie: My Sister's Keeper's & 2012.
Today is going to be movie day for me.It's raining anyway,
such an awesome weather to catch a movie.
Ohh and i'm still waiting for Ninja Assasin to be out cause
no one's gonna go to the movies with me.Might as well just watch it in the comfort of your own home.Saves time and money.

Movie Junkie?

2009-11-27T13:45:00.005+08:00

I want to watch this movie!It's been awhile since i last went to the movies.And it's been ages since i last went for one with friends.Anw,i am more excited to watch Lee Joon act rather than watching Rain.I've never been a fan of him.But i know this story has more parts on Rain than Lee Joon.;(But anw, i'm still looking forward to seeing his toner abs that he's been busy working for this movie.

I want to watch New Moon too!Maybe just in front of the computer.I hope dad,who is still on the verge of being retrenched,will receive his bonus before that happens.I've been waiting for this moment for years!To have my room renovated.Well at least,Haizad can have his own corner of soccer posters and stinky soccer boots(I don't care!) and i can have my own corner.Mom?She will have to accept the fact that she have no powers to decide on anything since it's our room.hohox!Ohh and also,i'm so getting a new wardrobe where i can keep my own clothes rather than share the space with mom & bro.Ahahaha.Somehow i get the feeling that i'm sounding like a spoil brat?=_=''

Today is Hari Raya Haji.I want to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha!Kesian kambing2 kat masjid.I'm not going to eat any kambing parts in order to respect them.I've seen how bloody the whole "sembelih" process is being done,thanks to my sweet brothers who did a great job in scaring me.LOL.

2009-11-26T18:04:00.007+08:00

Sometimes i wished i could speak a foreign language, so no one knows exactly what i'm talking about.

I've just changed my blog layout and i really love this new one.

School has been....usual.CAs are coming up and the year is ending soon.

Time flies.Every year,on 31st dec,i will make a wish but it doesnt seem to come true.I'm beginning to believe that wishes are just a load of trash.

I'm not sure if i'm going to make the same thing this year.

Niwaes,omma is cooking Chicken Rice (or famously known as Nasi Katok in Bruneian) for tomorrow's event.Everyone is going to be happy once again since it's the festive season.But i cant seem to tear myself away from this unhappiness death hole.

Too much things to deal with and so little time.

I hope i survive this.

2009-11-05T20:23:00.002+08:00

Pointless.

There comes a time when you grew tired of things.

How things are and how things were.

Wishing that things will change and how they will get better when they're not going to.
It's pointless just thinking about it.

!st time at swensen

2009-10-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

Today morning,HR lesson has been really dry.

Lucky i ate my breakfast and had some energy to focus even if it's for a little while.Mr Sam was blabering about latecoming reasons bla bla bla...

It was really boring.

After school,Saiful treated us to ice cream at Swensens.

It was actually only for the october babies,because he was an october baby too.But the others(like me~!) also tagged along.

Free food what!ㅋㅋㅋ!

Still can remember Raley talking about his "10 seconds of fame" in suria drama Satu Jam.

ㅋㅋㅋ!~!

And also,the joy of sharing food.Had fun eating with them.^^

And it was my 1st time eating at Swensen too!I'm really outdated larr.If you test me about the name of some fashion brands,i doubt i'll be able to pass it.

ㅋㅋㅋ!!

Sweet 18

2009-10-23T23:40:00.002+08:00

October babies.

♥A Happy Sweet 18 Birthday

To The Four Birthday Girls!♥
Finally,i'm not the oldest.
Teehees.

school,hammy woes,trying.

2009-09-30T01:31:00.003+08:00

School is going to start soon and i'm hoping that i made used of my holidays well.
Yes,day by day,it has been quite boring.
Filled my time by reading books,newspapers,watching tv & of course,playing
the computer.
Today,mom allowed me to cook a dish for the family.
After returning from Kluang,my late great grandma's sister's house(phew!that's long!),
i decided to try to cook the meal that i had there.
It was ikan chincaru with sweet & sour sambal.It was delicious!!!
But i prefer to cook a hot one,just the sambal.Of course,mom helped out at the kitchen
but i did all the "diessecting" of the fish's intestines!Muahaha!!Yes,it was bloody because
dad bought it fresh from the market!

Had a go at GIMP,the picture editing software & it totally jammed up my cp!I didnt want to open photoshop
because it usually lags my cp & make my musics sounds argdrhtujkl.
And finally!!The time i've been waiting!The time me & my young bro has been waiting is here!
Mom finally announced that the old bed in my room will have to go at the end of this year!
Yeah!No more squeezy room,climbing some stupid stairs to go to bed and facing the window everytime
you go to bed!Yahoo~!!I really hope mom won't go back on her words.Me & my bro has been waiting for those words to come out of her mouth for...Centuries!>.<

Argh,i'm getting annoyed at my hamster,Kaka.Wierd name for a hammy right? I bought 2 at 1st,hoping that 2 is a company for the them to avoid boredom.Hammies gets bored too u know~!One is Kiki,3 times more $ than Kaka because it's another species.So,to tell you my hammy story.

I bought them during the aftie when i went to Serangoon Gardens with my dad-grocery shopping.
Walked past the pet shop and saw the cute furry "cunning" creatures & bought it.
Reach home,rest and got ready for my 2nd bro's graduation ceremony at SP.
Went back home after that,my lil bro informed me that he heard noises in the cage but he thought they were talking.
Seriously,hammies talked with noises?haha!!
And that's when i saw Kiki's mouth was bloody and his body,stiff cold.
I carried it onto my hand and boy,do i cry so much like it was the end of the world!
Didnt want to look at Kaka for days!!

I was just starting to love this pet and it's killed by it's own cagemate.Aigoo~~Since then,i cant look at Kaka and love it 100%.Each time i feed it,it starts it's WHINY shriek.It's like i have tortured it.Or perhaps it knows that i'm angry with it.Ahh,hammy woes. . .

The last time it was seen together,The white one is Kiki.

Enough of that,i feel a lil serba salah towards Ainn.I really want to accompany her for the raya outing
because she's alone.Darn my cough!Blame the hot weather for making me drink all those cold drinks!
Ainn,i'm so sorry about it dear!
And Jannah,u were hospitalised and didnt tell any of us abt it?Omg..I hope you are feeling better now!
Get well soon.Miss you Twinny.
I'm really starting to miss my friends & classmates.
After what happened to me on the 1st day of exams,i decided,i have to change.
I have to start taking my studies seriously.Seeing all my other friends enjoying Poly life
really makes me sad.But i've tired my utmost best to get the best results i could achieve.

"I have been impressed with the urgency of doing.
Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Being willing is not enough; we must do.”
-Leonardo Da Vinci

Sins of loving you

2009-09-22T17:22:00.009+08:00

When i miss you, i close my eyes and i can see that person better
I try to forget and erase, but i get reminded of that person more
I told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait

The sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im sick of waiting
The sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot

because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..like this

I told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait

Breaking up is fast, but forgetting is hard
the love is painful, and i am hurt alone

Did you have to leave that far away from me?
Did you have to leave that far away from me?

I should've loved you with all my life, but you forgot me now like a heartless person

I should have loved you with my all, but now you live forgetting me.

With all my life, the person that i love

that person only gave me tears and left the tough love which i was hurt alone

the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot

because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..

like this.

The person who is called "My Dad".

2009-09-15T01:01:00.008+08:00

Nowadays,I don't know what's happening in the house.Dad,you are like someone who i don't really know.One sec,you'll be this really caring person who is closer to the family.Another sec,you'll be this cold person who seems like the whole world has offended you.

This usually happens when you've got work at night.The moment you come back,you've become a cold person.Mom hated your job of becoming a musician by night.

But you stood by your principles and ignored her disagreements.I,on the other hand,as a daughter has no say about this.Your constant arguements with mom lasted longer than you were on good terms.

How long is this character of yours gonna last?Being so strongheaded and showing the way you are angry by messing up the kitchen or the rooms.Why must you take the family as some sorta punching bag for something that you are upset with outside the house?Always trying to portray the character of the good family man in front of others and thrashing things within the family when you are angry.

When will this end?!

안녕하세요!

2009-09-12T01:26:00.004+08:00

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!

Gosh..i looked hideous these days!
My ugly teeths..chubby cheeks..leading the life of a couch potato.
The perfect formula to chubby Nurul!
Hehe!The same sec 3 girl . . .
I've always wanted to grow,just like some of my friends but what to do?
Aigoo~~
Well,i went to the doc and he told me "Don't worry,you will stop growing till you reach 25."
Are you for real?I'v never heard anyone say that before.
I thought growth normally stops at 18 or at most,21.
Maybe you are that Facebook fortune teller conman!
hahaha!!
Lol!I asked a stupid questi0n to the conman and got a stupid answer.
It pisses me out.
Though i know it's not real,still..
Aigoo~~i shouldnt have asked him anything in the first place.
In the end,it was me pranking him back,asking if he's stupid in korean.
Whaha!!^__^v

Hols~~
Lovely time right?
Mine?Boredom is the best word to describe it.
I've always wanted breaks..
Now that i've got them for 1 whole month,i felt something was missing.
Gahh..
I'm missing out on the actions!
Things teenagers my age are mostly doing!
You know..the normal stuffs...
Omona..

Had a boring day today but my fav sis manages to cheer me up with her clumsiness.
haha!
Though we may be half globe away from each other,
she totally understands me!
And also,had an awesome time in chatroom with others..
I've been hiatus for so long and i'm glad to be back with everyone.^^

안녕하세요!!!

2009-09-02T21:02:00.003+08:00

I came across this set of questions when i was busy browsing thru what my lj peeps are writing about their daily lives.It's interesting so i'm gonna take the quiz.

Tell me what do you think about :
1)Yourself
2)Life
3)Family
4)Friends
5)Ambitions
6)The typical topic called "Boys"
7)Past,Present & Future

in a few simple words.

1)Small,inmature,quiet,think alot,panics easily,timid & kinda dense
2)Is a mystery.I'm learning new things about it everday.
3)Means the world to me
4)funny,loveable,caring
5)Still figuring out
6)Better get to know myself first than getting involve with one.
7)Past,i'm not looking back.Present,i'm loving every single moment of it.Future,i'm working hard for a better one.

What am i doing here?

2009-08-31T00:15:00.006+08:00

Err...hello?

What am i doing here?I should be hitting the books,mugging for upcoming exams.Eventhough it's only 2 papers,it still makes alot of difference with my marks.My 2nd bro has been bugging me about my GPA all these while..it's effing frustrating!For the last time,i don't know!Even after tests,we arent allowed to know our marks!That's how things works in the school!I don't know why!Don't ask!Haishh...Omona!This is driving me mad.If only time would come to a standstill.
Micheo micheo~!!

So.why am i doing here?I don't know.I'm tired of studying.I did my revisions on BZE and POA..i get the nostalgic feeling.I'm sure everyone will feel it.Mugging for exams seems like an endless cycle.Or maybe it's just me,who likes to whine & procrastinate about things.Sometimes mom doesnt believe that i'm studying when i'm in the room alone.All because of my flop in O lvls,she started losing faith that i'm the next "clever member" in the family.Bleah!

How did i end up here?Umph,was busy trying to finish OFA till my stomach starts to grumbles in the afternoon.I swear it's not hunger.Anw,i got bored and decided to go online and voila!I'm here!Actually..i'm feeling cranky right now.I should stop whining or people may start callin me "Whiny Heeeeerin". (-,-'')v

I'm just bored.Bored with life?not really...I need a dream.A realistic one.One that makes me who i am.Something worth fighting for.But i'm clueless about it.I don't really have a dream right now.
But i'm 18.Shouldnt it be time for me to discover myself,the world and the things around me?Hmm..i cant imagine what i will be in 5 years time.Still studying perhaps?Well at least i know that i would like to attend a language school since i have a deep interest in languages.And i love cultures.That's the lil bits of strengths that i have in me.Too bad it's not applicable in the things i'm learning in school.

Anw.i'm off to continue watching HanaKimi.
Sayonara Minnasan!

I See Me

2009-08-29T16:53:00.001+08:00

I See Me

When I look into these eyes
I find things no one else ever catches a glimpse at

I see this fear of judgment
that makes her cower at confrontation

I see this hopelessness for the future
that make her choices her burden alone

I see this desperate need for companionship to make her strong
in the savage world of humans

I see this courage
caged in her thoughts of inferiority

I see these thoughts of abandonment
that make her cling to anything

I see this devotion to her beliefs
that makes her fear death

And I hate that the person I always see
is me.

forgiveness?

2009-08-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

Just when i thought i could start to forgive you,you have to make matters worst.I'm really shocked to see you like this.I mean,i know you have your own space.But look at your age.Isnt it too young to do that?In my opinion,i think it is.
Gosh!!How am i ever going to forgive you again?!After what you did to make things worst.
I'm clueless about what i'm suppose to do now.
Maybe i should just shut yoou out of my life.

2009-08-23T02:02:00.000+08:00

Heyy!!It's the Fasting month now.
To all my friends,
Slamat menjalani ibadah puasa!!!
I remembered last year my afternoons were filled with boredom.
Because all i did is to study & sleep.
My only source of entertainment is the TV.
It was such a dull life.

I slpt 2 hours ytd because of sahur.
Which means that i am a late sleeper..
oh,is there such words?haha!Anw,sometimes i cant believe that i am
already 18.
I mean look at me.
haha!!I don't look like 18 at all!
I will consider that as a compliment & an insult.
I really want to grow tall!(I want to win that 1cm & be taller than Jannah!)
My ideal height?hmm...
It's the height of my fellow classmate Stacy.
But i doubt i can reach that height.
So i guess i will settle for Maisarah's height.
Teehees!!

While being small size is a good thing,i gotta admit.
I really envy this girl here.
2NE1's Gong Minji.
She's only 15 yrs old!!!

You just gotta love those popping dance moves!
Do you think she look like 15?
Honestly,i thought she was older than me.
Therefore,looks can be deceiving.
Hehe.

Hmm..
On August 19 & 20,
I really had fun and great memories were created.
It's like god has answered my prayers and found me a bunch of really nice people.
I'm really grateful for that.

Being 18 means i can no longer act like a small kiddo anymore.
Well i can but only at certain times!(I'm still a teenager)
I know that i lack alot of things.
Knowledge...confidence..fighting spirit...height.(well that's obvious!haha!)
I really wish i can redeem myself back.
Get back to that old hardworking & never say die attitude i had when i was in secondary school.

Maybe perhaps it's because i've lost hope once.
So i'm losing my faith in the things i want to do in life.
But heyy,my friends & classmates are in the same shoe as me.
We went thru exactly the same thing.

I have to learn to treat failure as the backdoor pass to success.

Xuper Nice Gifts!

2009-08-23T00:47:00.001+08:00

Here are the gifts from my beloved people!

HP Strap,Hair ribbon & unknown present!
I still havent open it!
Let it be a mystery!hehehe!!!

Shinee Romeo cd!!
I got shocked when i saw this!
Mai was really thoughtful.
She knew what i liked!

Carebear!The wondergirls love carebears
and since i know nothing about it,i am given one.
I named it Wish!

Other pink stuffs!Book,huge pen and fan!
The weather in SG is hot!
It will definately be put to good use!

The "pink" package!

All the goodies stuffed in a box!

Mystery present and a card from Mai & JW!
It's in pink too!

The card made by themselves!

15 other birthday wishes!
Including my teacher!
hehe!!
I cried when i read this.
Really really touched.
I'm such a sensitive soul!

Sorry i didnt snapped a photo of my cake.
Here's the food my dad bought for me.
Mee Hongkong!
Woohoo!
Totally tantalizing!

And lastly,the gift from Maral!
My lovely Sister who is also another August baby!
Now that my birthday is over.
Who's birthday am i gonna look forward to now?

KIM KIBUM!!!

Happy 18th Bday!

2009-08-23T00:40:00.000+08:00

*Taken from my LJ!That's why it's different fonts!hehe!*

Heyy!I'm back!
It has been a truly great day today!Everything happened soo quickly!
Firstly,i am truly thankful to all of my friends,unni(s),dongsaengs & elfs for wishing me a happy birthday,
I truly appreciate that!

Thanks to:

Chingus: Hazirah,Didie unni,Cherry unni,Maral unni,Janet unni,Kelly,Alicia unni,Hanis,bumie & Keren unni!

Friends: Isb'ians!My classmates!The wondergirls-Mai,Jenny,Humai,Ain,Diana.Elle,Nadia and not to forget,JW!Mai's ehem!
hahaha!!

My family : Mom,for the nice LJ Meal afte school and for the birthday blessings,Dad,for the Sakura Mee Hongkong and cute birthday cake!

sorry sorry if i left anyone out!

I felt really blessed today for all the love that has been showered to me!
Here's exactly what happened on 19 August 2009.

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Before the clock strikes 12,i got all the awesome gifts from my online chingus!
Including Hazirah!
She was the 1st to greet me and my!
She's seems more excited about it instead!
hehe!!
Well i guess that's what good friends are,being happy for each other.

After the clock strikes 12,Jannah was the 2nd person to wish me Happy Birthday.
I was crying when she called and she told me to stop crying because it's my birthday.
It was a mixture of tears of sadness & happiness.
I was really touched,And trust me.that wasnt the only time i cried today.
After that,Ain called to wish me Happy Birthday.
Followed by Deanna's Bday wish,
Then the next morning,Hanis and Alicia unni texted me.

Then school at 10am.I was late because mom needed help early in the morning.
It was fitness class anyway,no worries.hehe!
Talked to hazirah otw to school!
Reached school 45 mins late and as soon as i got there,
I got a hug from Nabila!
Then,saw the cute chinese guy again in the school hall!
haha!!Zirah u shld know this.
Oh yar,i called Zirah to continue our conv for a while till the teacher spotted me with
the phone.
Then Mai & Ain cheekily threatened to exposed me to the boy!haha!
So funny!
If you want to know,the boy's skin looked like Nichkhun's.
very fair!^____^v

Humai,Deaanna & Nadia wished me happy birthday during breaks!
Then the best part,Jannah purposely dragged me to the toilet with her and then when we arrived in LPD class,
1..2..3!Happy Birthday to Nurul!
The whole class started singing to me!
I really breakdown at that time.
I cant stop blushing.
I feel very happy and touched by everyone.
Other than 5a2,ISB has been another great class!

JW & Wondergirls gave me presents!
Gonna post the photo in another entry cox this entry is too long!
So we hung out at the amphitheatre because LPD got cancelled,
Took photos and had a good chat with Mai,the non stop chatter.hehe!

I was lucky my cmb presentations are pushed to tmrw.
hehe!
i was honestly still freaked out about it.
I need to calm down.
My other friends are downright better speakers than me.
But be confident Nurul!

So then,went back home with them.
Met mom and ate LJ at the mall.
Chatted again with Zirah before that.hehe!
Zirah,i hope you wont get too affected by it okay.
You have done what you can do.
Concentrate on your studies and your presentations for now.^^
At home,dad bought my fav food and a small birthday cake.

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That's about it!Kinda redundant but it was alot of fun!
Wondergirls jokes are endless!

Peace Upon You.

2009-08-14T17:54:00.000+08:00

Yes..i'm back with a newly edited blog.
I'm guessing that i might need my blog to keep in touch
with my friends.
Besides,blogskins are more easy to customize than livejournal ones.

Peace,
take care!